Wednesday 27 June 2007

Midweek

Hopefully I’m getting a little back in to the habit of blogging, I do enjoy it and I, like most others I assume, find it rewarding when people comment.

With my old dad still being in residence and still being as frustrating as usual is causing Wifey’s and I’s tempers to be a little frayed. We had another row on Monday night but we are speaking again now. What is helping is that my dad is babysitting, so last night we went to dinner with some new friends. I don’t make friends easily so it is always a rare treat to find new ones.

Thanks to D&E for dinner last night and the interesting conversation, oh and the wine of course.

Monday 25 June 2007

Fathers Day

My old dad lives nearly 200 miles away from where Wifey and I now live. I am originally from the North Midlands and now live within striking distance of the South Coast. This means that when I see my dad it’s invariably for at least a week at a time. I love my old dad but after a few days he drives Wifey and I balmy.

He is, at the moment, stopping for a fortnight. However, last Thursday night we discovered something really quite amazing. We have a live in babysitter. So we went to meet a friend last Thursday (albeit a day late and hence no friend there to meet!). So we went home, parked the car, and without stopping turned on our heals to the local pub. It was great. We had a whale of a time and had a chance to really talk. We got home and promptly hot footed it to the bedroom.

On Friday night, like a couple of dating teenagers, asked the old boy if he’d baby-sit and darted of to the pub again, this time for a bit to eat as well. After another night of non stop talking we left at closing time, walked home and again hot footed it to the bedroom.

The weekend was a bit of a wash out and ended on Sunday with a row over the decoration of our spare bedroom. We drove home in silence and exchanged glowering looks when we got in, so I want to paint and she went to feed the baby and prepare tea. I have found out that you can’t be angry and paint wood work. Wifey apologised, I mumbled an apology back (which is quite good for me). I normally stay in a mood for days but in 10 minutes we were back to being happy together again.

So thanks for baby sitting dad, even though he’ll never read this as the technology of computers is a little beyond him.

Even though Wifey and I have a strong relationship it has taken a battering recently, what with the baby, the new house and its associated financial pressures and pressure at both of our work places. We are planning two trips to the pub this week. I think it’ll do our relationship some good.

Thursday 21 June 2007

It's been a while

It was been a while since I’ve written anything here. I think the last post kind of gave the game away a little. I’ve been quite stressed about all sorts of things, but mainly work. When I took this job there were two fundamental parts to it. One which I am very comfortable with, and one which I knew very little about. I knew the idea but not even the principle.

I am comfortable running construction projects of various types, under various forms of contract and acting as both contractor and now as a client. What I’m not familiar with is planning (who is?). My employers knew this when they hired me as I was up-font about it in my interview. I am in a fairly fortunate position where I can be honest with a potential employer as quite often it’s as much about finding out if I want to work for them as they finding out if they want me to work for them. Are you still with me on this?

Anyhow since working for the organisation I am predominantly working on planning and this is way outside my ‘comfort zone’. I don’t feel I get adequate direction which makes me feel as though I’m floundering around and going now where fast. This is not good for my moral as I’m OK with being outside of my comfort zone but I like to mix it with stuff in my comfort zone to help reassure me that I’m doing a good job. Feeling like I’m doing a good job is important to me and at the moment I don’t feel like I’m doing that well.

Hence I’m feeling stressed and unmotivated.

However this job does have some compensations, I just need to try and look on the bright side (which I don’t find easy when I’m feeling crap about myself). I was offered another job this week and I was sorely tempted. Two upsides. It’s working with a former colleague who I like and respect. The pay is really good. Two down sides. It’s in central London. The company has a 12 hour a day culture.