Wednesday 12 September 2007

Down Beat

I’d love to post something with a cheerful note to it today, but I had been wandering around with a dark cloud over my head for some months since I realised that this job isn’t for me. On the whole I’ve just being putting it to the back of my mind and getting on with things whilst keeping my ear to the ground for a new job. Over the past two weeks the cloud has darken and is threatening rain….

I have ‘things in the pipeline’ but nothing is certain until you actually start a new job. My lack of motivation is starting to turn in to a vicious circle or lethargy.

Roll on the weekend.

4 comments:

Z said...

Is the job as bad as all that, or is it that you have lost heart for one reason and another and can't regain any interest? And are you over your illness yet? - it sounds as though you are quite run down, which is probably the reason you've had two bad colds in quick succession.

I think you should plan something fun for the weekend. You and Wifey badly need a laugh and some togetherness. Leave work behind when you get home - or pretend to anyway. If you act happy, you will feel better. And remember, it's temporary. You'll get through it.

Champagne helps.

AFC 30K said...

Z, thanks for your comment. The job could be grea and it does have some perks, however I don't agree with the way my chief runs things and anything I try to do ends up being mostly a waste of time. So it is the fact I have lost interest and no matter how I try I just can't get it back. I can feel my brain shutting off the closer I get to the ofice!

I am run down and this year has been a strain. Wifey is working long hours on her business as have I on the house. Finances are tight, but Wifey's business is steadily growing. I rarely get ill, but recently, as you say, I've been struck down twice.

I'd love to do something fun this weekend but Wifey is so busy at work she must work to catch up, otherwise she'll have clients ditching her (this happend once last month as she took too long to get back to a client which in her industry is anything over 24 hours)

I honestly do leave work at the office door, but I get home and help WEifey with her work and or work on the house. Even on our holidays the mobile and the laptop go everywhere!

I do know I'll get through it eventually; I've been in far worse places, but I'm very impatient! I also suffer from Pi-Polar depression (my Black Dog) and for the most part it is contolled (without drugs for the last year and a half or so) but a prelonged exposure to being misserable will send me in to a downward spiral that can take me months, sometimes years to break free from. But lets not be pessamistic, we're not at that point just yet.

Thanks for the concern Z. I will head your advice and try and do something fun and the weekend of the 22nd.

Z said...

Taking Pickle to the park for an hour and watching him laugh as you push him on the swing will have to do then. I completely sympathise.

AFC 30K said...

I may do my chores and then leave Wifey to it. I'm sure she'll get on better without the distractions of me and the baby.

We're only 20 minutes from Brighton so I may take him to the beech (or pebbles as is Brighton) if the weather is anything like.